howdy blog! i lied!
rmb i told you i will type on your little pathetic white blank space some monkey months ago? well, i obviously did not and i am not feeling guilty at all. But thank you for being here when i feel like rambling and imma gonna do just that.
its 27th december and today is not a good day. simply because its one day after my birthday. GAH. alright, kidding. i am actually looking forward to a new and exciting 2011. i remember being super emotic (i created this word) last year this time as i was about to be employed by THE BEST EMPLOYERS IN SINGAPORE. honoured much, yea?
anw, the title is typed by lili and she's very lazy but quite cute at times. I love the way she munches on our sour candy like a mouse. alright, i was totally uninspired typing the crap above and i still am. so here goes.
CHEERS TO A HAPPY 2011!
Monday, December 27, 2010
Sunday, September 26, 2010
howdy dowdy, what brings me here?
Hah, inspiration.
kidding, its just some random thoughts, boredom, some green tea and pizza (weird combo i know) and the urge to type something in this cute white box. This is for you my dear reader(s).
My oh my, everytime i am here, i feel accomplished. Look, the last time i was here, it was June and i was barely a 5 mth soldier. Now i am going into my 9th month. Yes i know what it means... closer to ORD LO~! OK still quite a long way to go but at least i am getting closer. This blog is like some ORD counter, cools.
Just to not allow myself seem like the typical desperate NSF who is craving for ORD (obviously i am NOT! i mean i am craving for it but not DESPERATELY. Get it? geez) I do have other stuff going on in my life. For example, i have dedicated, and still dedicating, my weekends to learning driving and i am almost there. 2 weeks to TP and i hope you readers would just sms me and wish me luck cause that is the nice thing to do and nowadays singaporeans arent really the nicest bunch and i really am in need of some tender loving care (TLC) and the idea of being able to know who actually contributes to my blog counter is a very tempting one.
Bad sentence that one, no punctuations whatsoever.
ohhh, bad sentence structure up there as well.
Righto, lets go to hotel california for a nap! ciaooo!
Hah, inspiration.
kidding, its just some random thoughts, boredom, some green tea and pizza (weird combo i know) and the urge to type something in this cute white box. This is for you my dear reader(s).
My oh my, everytime i am here, i feel accomplished. Look, the last time i was here, it was June and i was barely a 5 mth soldier. Now i am going into my 9th month. Yes i know what it means... closer to ORD LO~! OK still quite a long way to go but at least i am getting closer. This blog is like some ORD counter, cools.
Just to not allow myself seem like the typical desperate NSF who is craving for ORD (obviously i am NOT! i mean i am craving for it but not DESPERATELY. Get it? geez) I do have other stuff going on in my life. For example, i have dedicated, and still dedicating, my weekends to learning driving and i am almost there. 2 weeks to TP and i hope you readers would just sms me and wish me luck cause that is the nice thing to do and nowadays singaporeans arent really the nicest bunch and i really am in need of some tender loving care (TLC) and the idea of being able to know who actually contributes to my blog counter is a very tempting one.
Bad sentence that one, no punctuations whatsoever.
ohhh, bad sentence structure up there as well.
Righto, lets go to hotel california for a nap! ciaooo!
Sunday, June 27, 2010
sorry i forgotten u =(
howdy my dear blog, you must be pissed at me for not posting any nonsense on u anymore. Well, i was really tied up with other stuff you see...
ok, forget the excuses, no use apologising to a blog anyway! hah.
much has happened since i last blogged. (i doubt the last post was posted by me though..) lets see, i am back at gedong, i have since stopped stalling my car. ok. i lied. i stalled once. ONCE. i have more hair now. my sister is married! my mum has reddish hair and dd is cuter.
hmm, maybe the last part needs some editing but for the lack of better words, 'cuter' seems apt.
what else? hmm, many of my friends are anticipating Uni life soon, oh yes. and i am giving tuition as well but theres not really much to talk about. I am hooked onto 'human' by killers right now. thats probably it.
damn, i know i sound a bit despondent and uninteresting but in actual fact, i am far from that stage. I have merely switched my life into gear 2 and let it roll along smoothly.
Theres no way and no reason to accelerate when so much is out of my control, isnt it?
Cant we be humans and dancers at the same time?
you gotta let me know
ok, forget the excuses, no use apologising to a blog anyway! hah.
much has happened since i last blogged. (i doubt the last post was posted by me though..) lets see, i am back at gedong, i have since stopped stalling my car. ok. i lied. i stalled once. ONCE. i have more hair now. my sister is married! my mum has reddish hair and dd is cuter.
hmm, maybe the last part needs some editing but for the lack of better words, 'cuter' seems apt.
what else? hmm, many of my friends are anticipating Uni life soon, oh yes. and i am giving tuition as well but theres not really much to talk about. I am hooked onto 'human' by killers right now. thats probably it.
damn, i know i sound a bit despondent and uninteresting but in actual fact, i am far from that stage. I have merely switched my life into gear 2 and let it roll along smoothly.
Theres no way and no reason to accelerate when so much is out of my control, isnt it?
Cant we be humans and dancers at the same time?
you gotta let me know
Sunday, May 23, 2010
sick at home
Howdy people,
i love my girlfriend very much. She's here with me now! YAY! she gets rid of all my monday blues. i am very happy with my girlfriend. she makes me happy. she is wonderful. she is terrific. she is tremendous.
life's been terrific so far. what with staying in at sungei gedong and leaving my beloved family and girlfriend in sengkang to go to a foreign land in dumb dumb sungei gedong. life practically sucks, BUT luckily i am showered with love because my dear girlfriend calls me everyday with her new pretty, black and red samsung phone.
i shall go watch Valentine's Day now with my sweet girlfriend who had watched it before but had no qualms about watching it with me again.
so long people!
P.S did i say it before? but i love my girlfriend very much.
i love my girlfriend very much. She's here with me now! YAY! she gets rid of all my monday blues. i am very happy with my girlfriend. she makes me happy. she is wonderful. she is terrific. she is tremendous.
life's been terrific so far. what with staying in at sungei gedong and leaving my beloved family and girlfriend in sengkang to go to a foreign land in dumb dumb sungei gedong. life practically sucks, BUT luckily i am showered with love because my dear girlfriend calls me everyday with her new pretty, black and red samsung phone.
i shall go watch Valentine's Day now with my sweet girlfriend who had watched it before but had no qualms about watching it with me again.
so long people!
P.S did i say it before? but i love my girlfriend very much.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
its dwindling
howdy, blog. i haven seen u in a gazillion years and you know what? Without blogging, i feel like i sometimes cant express my feelings into words anymore. That eventually translates to the fact that i cant speak and articulate my feelings in spoken words.
That is bad, in case you were wondering.
Then there is arsenal. Talk about being bad to worse. Arsenal has just dipped down into the depths of hell and beyond. that is if there is actually a beyond. Lets face it, yes, they have had freakish injuries to majorly important players which sucks more than a burnt toast with expired cheese on it. But to lose a 2-0 lead to a team that is 16th in the lge and ending up losing the match can only mean that the team has lost it. The winning mentality gone, the so-called 'spirit' which wenger used to describe his team so regularly is not existent. Its like the money in my wallet, yea, non existent.
I have lost faith in this arsenal team. This season, they have proven that they are real contenders but now we all know that they are, but, pretenders to the crown. You dont win the title with players like this. Arsenal fans must face the fact that we are a small fish competing with stronger and better rivals. Chelsea and man u are sharks and they are scary. Arsenal, a mere fighting fish.
The question is whether we can still be in a strong position to challenge next season. Another season of promise is ending and perhaps if next season, arsenal once again fails to deliver, it will spark off major changes. For one, i believe wenger will leave and if god permits, an equally good, if not better, manager can come in to weave some magic and actually make changes.
Arsenal aside, my life hasnt been all that smooth sailing. There are plenty going through in my life that i am terribly unsatisfied or frustrated with. I have to admit i am to blame for some of my own troubles. There are problems which i probably could have rectify but my lack of drive and inspiration is holding me back. I am a victim of my own crime.
But i believe when you have hit rock bottom, the only way out is up. That is, unless, you decide to dig ur grave even deeper. Things must change for the better. They just have to. I have to make things happen.
And to you, the reader, who still visit this almost dead blog, i salute you. I will be back soon.
Definitely.
That is bad, in case you were wondering.
Then there is arsenal. Talk about being bad to worse. Arsenal has just dipped down into the depths of hell and beyond. that is if there is actually a beyond. Lets face it, yes, they have had freakish injuries to majorly important players which sucks more than a burnt toast with expired cheese on it. But to lose a 2-0 lead to a team that is 16th in the lge and ending up losing the match can only mean that the team has lost it. The winning mentality gone, the so-called 'spirit' which wenger used to describe his team so regularly is not existent. Its like the money in my wallet, yea, non existent.
I have lost faith in this arsenal team. This season, they have proven that they are real contenders but now we all know that they are, but, pretenders to the crown. You dont win the title with players like this. Arsenal fans must face the fact that we are a small fish competing with stronger and better rivals. Chelsea and man u are sharks and they are scary. Arsenal, a mere fighting fish.
The question is whether we can still be in a strong position to challenge next season. Another season of promise is ending and perhaps if next season, arsenal once again fails to deliver, it will spark off major changes. For one, i believe wenger will leave and if god permits, an equally good, if not better, manager can come in to weave some magic and actually make changes.
Arsenal aside, my life hasnt been all that smooth sailing. There are plenty going through in my life that i am terribly unsatisfied or frustrated with. I have to admit i am to blame for some of my own troubles. There are problems which i probably could have rectify but my lack of drive and inspiration is holding me back. I am a victim of my own crime.
But i believe when you have hit rock bottom, the only way out is up. That is, unless, you decide to dig ur grave even deeper. Things must change for the better. They just have to. I have to make things happen.
And to you, the reader, who still visit this almost dead blog, i salute you. I will be back soon.
Definitely.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
when you are used to abalone, porridge just plain sucks
howdy blog. Its been a while, so long it feels surreal. In this short period of around 3 months, i have been through a lot. Hm, maybe a lot is an overstatement but i dare say i have been through my fair share of ups and downs.
BMT, amazing experience. Unforgettable and gruelling. They say the day you lay your hands upon the rifle, you become a man, i say no. It is the day when you return your rifle that you become a man, a protector and an adult. I thank each and every one from my platoon and my sergeants for enabling me to go through such an enriching journey, brothers in arms and comrades for life, we'll see how true this statement is in the future.
A levels. Just yesterday. It was a cruel change of emotions before and after obtaining that little piece of results slip. That indifference i felt, that composure i had and that confidence i carried were sensationally modified, changed and destroyed. What followed was pure unadulterated disbelief and probably despair. Who could've imagined this kind of impact? I certainly didnt see it coming.
As i write this post, i feel hollow and unloved. I am continually looking back at that pit-stop, that sanctuary i once had just 3 months ago, that sanctuary i once lived comfortably in just 3 months ago and that sanctuary which i had to leave. I didnt want to leave but i had no choice. Life, sometimes, does not offer you a choice. It forces you to grow and fight to survive, it is relentless yet enjoyable. It is ironic.
Expectations shattered, confidence dealt a cruel blow and the road ahead remains treacherous and arduous. I am struggling to come to terms, struggling to face the fact that i am, in fact, not up to the standards i have set for myself. How do i bounce back?
The answer, i have not found. I am trying and i am not giving up. Its just that i cannot find my beacon of light at this moment. I want to move on so badly but something is dragging me back. Pride, jealousy and regret? Is moving on the only option here?
Too many questions, too few answers. Everyone is configured differently and I am who I am.
For now, i find myself alone. I do not enjoy being alone, i want company. But perhaps its out of the best way out of this predicament.
I must survive.
Life IS ironic. =)
BMT, amazing experience. Unforgettable and gruelling. They say the day you lay your hands upon the rifle, you become a man, i say no. It is the day when you return your rifle that you become a man, a protector and an adult. I thank each and every one from my platoon and my sergeants for enabling me to go through such an enriching journey, brothers in arms and comrades for life, we'll see how true this statement is in the future.
A levels. Just yesterday. It was a cruel change of emotions before and after obtaining that little piece of results slip. That indifference i felt, that composure i had and that confidence i carried were sensationally modified, changed and destroyed. What followed was pure unadulterated disbelief and probably despair. Who could've imagined this kind of impact? I certainly didnt see it coming.
As i write this post, i feel hollow and unloved. I am continually looking back at that pit-stop, that sanctuary i once had just 3 months ago, that sanctuary i once lived comfortably in just 3 months ago and that sanctuary which i had to leave. I didnt want to leave but i had no choice. Life, sometimes, does not offer you a choice. It forces you to grow and fight to survive, it is relentless yet enjoyable. It is ironic.
Expectations shattered, confidence dealt a cruel blow and the road ahead remains treacherous and arduous. I am struggling to come to terms, struggling to face the fact that i am, in fact, not up to the standards i have set for myself. How do i bounce back?
The answer, i have not found. I am trying and i am not giving up. Its just that i cannot find my beacon of light at this moment. I want to move on so badly but something is dragging me back. Pride, jealousy and regret? Is moving on the only option here?
Too many questions, too few answers. Everyone is configured differently and I am who I am.
For now, i find myself alone. I do not enjoy being alone, i want company. But perhaps its out of the best way out of this predicament.
I must survive.
Life IS ironic. =)
Saturday, January 23, 2010
dear blog
howdy world. yes world!
theres still a healthy 8 hrs be4 i book in so yea its slack time all the way.
right on, what can i blog abt?
=)
i'm tired. =)
theres still a healthy 8 hrs be4 i book in so yea its slack time all the way.
right on, what can i blog abt?
=)
i'm tired. =)
Sunday, December 13, 2009
i gotta feeling
tonight better be a good night.
howdy, blog. yes. you see, its not anyone's fault but mine that you have been cruelly ignored in the past few weeks. =) But thats what blogs are for, either you rant here and you tell yourself not to rant and you start typing a whole lot of nonsense abt life, studies, soccer and how ur winnie the pooh is tickling your nose as you sleep, you then realise that you are ranting. actually.
And of course, that friend of yours who is always so attentive to your ramblings will msn you and say smth like 'oh man, are you okay dude? you sound so emo in your blog' and than you start defending your case saying 'hey, i am fine man, jus had lots of thoughts this week' or something like that. Then you discover you can kid yourself any further and admit to yourself that you are actually in some sort of depressed state, which is why you click on blogger and start to redeem yourself by posting a happy post.
A happy post, hmmm, lets see. You think of happy stuff like arshavin scoring 4 goals against lpool and you suddenly wish he can score 5 later tonight.
Oh yea, lpool vs arsenal at anfield. I cant lie, i am terribly excited. Arsenal has drawn 4 times with lpool in the past 4 years and we've walloped them at anfield around 22134954 times throughout history. But we all know history stays as history, so later is gonna be really huge.
We are probably gonna field a lightestweight team ever seen in a clash between big 4s. Arshavin walcott and nasri are probably gonna start upfront and they all fall in the featherweight division(with arshavin in the featherweight U-9s division) So hmm, against the big monsters (ugly and hideous at that) like sirkertel or something (what sort of name is that exactly), it probably back to basics and with that i mean ole-ing them 4728 times before chipping reina and den headbutt the ball into the back of the net.
Yes, one can always dream.
C'mon you gunners!
P.S. Life is Good
howdy, blog. yes. you see, its not anyone's fault but mine that you have been cruelly ignored in the past few weeks. =) But thats what blogs are for, either you rant here and you tell yourself not to rant and you start typing a whole lot of nonsense abt life, studies, soccer and how ur winnie the pooh is tickling your nose as you sleep, you then realise that you are ranting. actually.
And of course, that friend of yours who is always so attentive to your ramblings will msn you and say smth like 'oh man, are you okay dude? you sound so emo in your blog' and than you start defending your case saying 'hey, i am fine man, jus had lots of thoughts this week' or something like that. Then you discover you can kid yourself any further and admit to yourself that you are actually in some sort of depressed state, which is why you click on blogger and start to redeem yourself by posting a happy post.
A happy post, hmmm, lets see. You think of happy stuff like arshavin scoring 4 goals against lpool and you suddenly wish he can score 5 later tonight.
Oh yea, lpool vs arsenal at anfield. I cant lie, i am terribly excited. Arsenal has drawn 4 times with lpool in the past 4 years and we've walloped them at anfield around 22134954 times throughout history. But we all know history stays as history, so later is gonna be really huge.
We are probably gonna field a lightestweight team ever seen in a clash between big 4s. Arshavin walcott and nasri are probably gonna start upfront and they all fall in the featherweight division(with arshavin in the featherweight U-9s division) So hmm, against the big monsters (ugly and hideous at that) like sirkertel or something (what sort of name is that exactly), it probably back to basics and with that i mean ole-ing them 4728 times before chipping reina and den headbutt the ball into the back of the net.
Yes, one can always dream.
C'mon you gunners!
P.S. Life is Good
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
ravaged
down and probably out.
OK my body feels like a certain arsenal right now. From a high flying team who are banging goals from left right centre, we are not goalless in 3 games. They say one man do not make a team but rvp absence is threatening to debunk that myth.
3-0 thrashing from mancity against our 3rd lineup. It was more or less expected but it is nonetheless disappointing.
Speaking of disappointment, i am sick. And disappointed. Being sick is not exactly the best thing that can happen to u right now, considering the fact that i have only less than 1 mth left before i serve the nation. Bully.
Why wont flu ever die? why why why? The more i sleep the restless i get. The more the medicine i eat, once again, the more drowsy i get. Frustrating. doesnt help when you have people around doing things that make u feel even worse. Rubbish.
God, its too cruel a joke to play on me right now. Please let me recover. Please.
OK my body feels like a certain arsenal right now. From a high flying team who are banging goals from left right centre, we are not goalless in 3 games. They say one man do not make a team but rvp absence is threatening to debunk that myth.
3-0 thrashing from mancity against our 3rd lineup. It was more or less expected but it is nonetheless disappointing.
Speaking of disappointment, i am sick. And disappointed. Being sick is not exactly the best thing that can happen to u right now, considering the fact that i have only less than 1 mth left before i serve the nation. Bully.
Why wont flu ever die? why why why? The more i sleep the restless i get. The more the medicine i eat, once again, the more drowsy i get. Frustrating. doesnt help when you have people around doing things that make u feel even worse. Rubbish.
God, its too cruel a joke to play on me right now. Please let me recover. Please.
Monday, November 30, 2009
The end
Howdy everyone, i am pleased to inform you that the Bloody As™ are over. History. Gone, like the wind and the fart that my bro incessantly releases throughout his slumber.
Some bad news, i have flu. Which means post As activities will have to take a break today. Damn. But hey, i gotta rest today and recover to full health so i can enjoy the rest of my 34 days break before i go into army suit.
Army... hmm... Its not like i dont like green, but going to some island to train really makes me feel a little detached, especially when i only have 1 month to rest. Gosh. No point feeling sorry for myself, go away you stupid flu.
Oh yea i am using my new comp. Its not exactly brand new but its 26x better than my tablet so i cant complain. BUT the int keeps going off once in a while, frustrating.
I realised i cant type well. Terribly sorry readers, i need some time to get accustomed to my new toy. Give me some time.
Give arsenal some time. =( I dont like chelsea but they are good.
Chelsea makes my tuesday blue. *Blue! geddit? hahhaa*
stop that sarcastic grin. kthxbye.
Some bad news, i have flu. Which means post As activities will have to take a break today. Damn. But hey, i gotta rest today and recover to full health so i can enjoy the rest of my 34 days break before i go into army suit.
Army... hmm... Its not like i dont like green, but going to some island to train really makes me feel a little detached, especially when i only have 1 month to rest. Gosh. No point feeling sorry for myself, go away you stupid flu.
Oh yea i am using my new comp. Its not exactly brand new but its 26x better than my tablet so i cant complain. BUT the int keeps going off once in a while, frustrating.
I realised i cant type well. Terribly sorry readers, i need some time to get accustomed to my new toy. Give me some time.
Give arsenal some time. =( I dont like chelsea but they are good.
Chelsea makes my tuesday blue. *Blue! geddit? hahhaa*
stop that sarcastic grin. kthxbye.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
If there was a wind, a wind so strong that can kill all sorrow and sadness, i would die to experience one gush.
Bring me somewhere where life is just about... about... nothing in particular. No pain, no happiness, no sorrow, no joy, no jealousy, no frustration and no love.
Oh that place might suck in the long run.
But i want instant gratification.
Bring me somewhere where life is just about... about... nothing in particular. No pain, no happiness, no sorrow, no joy, no jealousy, no frustration and no love.
Oh that place might suck in the long run.
But i want instant gratification.
Monday, November 23, 2009
when i find myself in times of trouble...
let it be.
Hold on people. Before you think my world is crashing down and the only hope of me surviving is one final throw of the dice and u have to get a '5' and you start to calculate the probability...
Oh yes, i am going a little coo coo. its so cold tonight and u know what cold nights are made for. Yes exactly, sleep! Usually under the comfort of your silk/cotton/PVC blanket and you start to sleep.
Then you dream. and that is good.
Before reality shakes you acrimoniously awake and you look at the last damn pile of notes you have to plow through. Physics. Oh my god. One of god's way of saying 'you gotta understand how the world works before you deserve to live on it'. Come to think of it, if newton didnt care about that particular apple, archimedes didnt think about why water is displaced whens he's in the bath tub and rutherford didnt have such a cool name, would we still be studying physics?
Woah, hold on. I shldnt even be going there. I am still staring blankly at my physics paper and hell isnt it cold right now? A little too cold for my liking. Alright, i admit, i am not wearing a shirt at the moment but still..
In other news, arsenal lost. End of statement, kthxbye.
The As are ending soon and i dont like it when my brother predicts everything correct. haha. Perhaps i will be a bit lost right after the last paper. err, not after i rip that piece of entry proof inside out upside down. grrrrrr.
I am deeply apologetic if i sound a real bore to you my blog, its the weather. I dont really like gloomy and rainy days. They bring out the lethargic me and makes me feel unprotected. awwww... Show me some love! *sniffs sniffs*
righto, i have to do physics. brrrrr, its really cold.
Yes i'm lonely, i'm tired, i'm missing you again...
P.S. i just like the song. =)
Hold on people. Before you think my world is crashing down and the only hope of me surviving is one final throw of the dice and u have to get a '5' and you start to calculate the probability...
Oh yes, i am going a little coo coo. its so cold tonight and u know what cold nights are made for. Yes exactly, sleep! Usually under the comfort of your silk/cotton/PVC blanket and you start to sleep.
Then you dream. and that is good.
Before reality shakes you acrimoniously awake and you look at the last damn pile of notes you have to plow through. Physics. Oh my god. One of god's way of saying 'you gotta understand how the world works before you deserve to live on it'. Come to think of it, if newton didnt care about that particular apple, archimedes didnt think about why water is displaced whens he's in the bath tub and rutherford didnt have such a cool name, would we still be studying physics?
Woah, hold on. I shldnt even be going there. I am still staring blankly at my physics paper and hell isnt it cold right now? A little too cold for my liking. Alright, i admit, i am not wearing a shirt at the moment but still..
In other news, arsenal lost. End of statement, kthxbye.
The As are ending soon and i dont like it when my brother predicts everything correct. haha. Perhaps i will be a bit lost right after the last paper. err, not after i rip that piece of entry proof inside out upside down. grrrrrr.
I am deeply apologetic if i sound a real bore to you my blog, its the weather. I dont really like gloomy and rainy days. They bring out the lethargic me and makes me feel unprotected. awwww... Show me some love! *sniffs sniffs*
righto, i have to do physics. brrrrr, its really cold.
Yes i'm lonely, i'm tired, i'm missing you again...
P.S. i just like the song. =)
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